well, last night was epic. I was back out of my comfort zone for a while, I felt like I was back in school tbh: by myself in a place where there were loads of people there, expecting to see a lot of people I knew but only 1 or 2 who actually like me, and the way certain people acted last night reminded me very strongly of school.
this is going to sound a bit on the odd side but I hate how life seems to be about to start turning out. when I went to school I started off no-one knew me and so they all gave me a chance but I spoke to so few of the people. then things messed all my friendships up and those people started to dislike me and because people talk everyone at school hated me even if they didn't know me. Things got better towards the end as I matured and all this stuff but I still had rarely any friends and some people acted nice to me but hated me, others just hated me and slagged me off and all that stuff. Then I left school and when I go out to gigs and things no-one really knew who I was except the people I went with.
then I started meeting more people and talking to them and they were okay with me for a while, but then some shit happened with one of them and now they all hate me bar one or 2 people. this to me feels exactly like school with just different names, faces and scenery. although last night I did meet this girl who after finding out who I was, and as it turned out she's best friends with the guy all the shit happened with, still spoke to me and gave me a chance. she told me I'm actually really nice and all this stuff.. that never happened at school. so here's hoping that attitude with people keeps up. but I'm really not liking how people acted towards me last night. despite all this stuff though, after a few beers the night turned out to be one of my favourites of the year so far :D
